Bonjour.
French is a language that i wish i can speak, besides Korean and Japanese. I think it's such an appealing language. sexy and there's something romantic about speaking french. ^^
My love (s) ^^
I should call mak and abah tomorrow. i guess they're worried. i should be done with AE by tomorrow. hopefully everything will end tomorrow. so i can go back. i guess padi is in penang right now. so no one's home?
i should be a better daughter.
i should get up early and clean up the house and cook.
but - i am just so useless.
and my mom and dad are so tolerable of me. these two persons who supports me the most, i can never thank them enough.
me , the ungrateful daughter who only sleeps when i go back, not helping with the house chores, always isolating myself in my room. just what kind of person am i?
friends - not?
i wish i have friends who support me, who will rescue me when i take the wrong path, those who'll have trust in me, those that're appreciative of what i've done for them.
some friends broke my heart. all these years we've been together, all these years, i've been supporting them when they were at their weak points, and all these years i've been trusting them, yet when i'm in such state, they looked at me with accusing face as if saying "it's ur fault u become like this"
when ur friends are in a mess, would u leave them?
shouldn't u help them out of the mess?
would u just leave them alone and let them drown further and further?
these people, whenever i see them now, it feels like i don't know them anymore. and i feel like a different person too.
i cant believe how selfish some people can be. and i became selfish too. if they can guiltlessly make me feel so, why can't i?
these people, we might not see each other for a long while afterwards i guess. which i'm glad. cause i really can't stand the pretentious face they put in front of me.
to these people, don't worry, u don't have to see me anymore.
it's useless really to feel upset over this. if they dun want the friendship then it's ok. i dun want it either. we both just go our way and both parties are happy.
see - happy ending is easy. who says there's no happy ending?
if u want one, u can always have it.
suicide
back then, it's so funny how whenever i didn't have any money left, i would think of suicide, i would be so depressed i just wanna die.
for the past few years, i never really cried. if i cried, it has always been because of money. money - is the essence of life.
but these days, even when money is tight, i dun go around thinking of suicide anymore.
suicide is stupid. suicide is just not the way out.
even when things get really bad, and i thought i really can't face life anymore, i would never think of suicide. because there's just so many other ways u can do to fix ur life.
by ending it is like u just cherish ur failure. it's not a victory.
i have so many things planned. if they don't go the way i want it to be, i'll have other things i want to do. as long as i live, i want to try as many things as possible, earn as much money as possible. be someone.
yes, someday, i'm gonna be someone. someone better.
i really wish i can earn so much money so i can take my mom and dad and my family shopping just anything they want. i'm so looking forward the future~
fighting~!!
the usuals
it's 7.33 am. i'm editing chapter 4 and doing my chapter 5 of AE. what a loser. i know. but i feel better a bit. it still sucks, the feeling of being stuck in shah alam.
food
i want to go home. this semester i spent a lot of money. i didn't shop, really. all the money went to FOOD. yep, that explains my PROSPEROUS FAT. before this semester started, i was 47 kg. now, i've ganied 5 more kgs. i'm almost 52 kg now. i'm fat. i'm willing to admit that now.
when my mom called, she always tells me not to eat a lot, cause evrytime i go home, i just expand more and more. maybe she's afraid she wouldn't recognize me anymore. hahaha. sadly, her words - as much as i understand her concern, i just fail to oblige. Because i love to eat too much.
People eat to live, I LIVE TO EAT. I can't live without food. Who could?
When I'm stressed, i have to eat,
when I'm bored, i have to eat,
when I'm happy, i have to eat,
when i'm depressed, of course I need to eat a lot more.
Clothes
I haven't shop for a while. I only have a few jeans, 1 sweatpants, several t-shirts, few blouses and a couple of shoes and two flip flops.
but i do have quite a number of baju kurung. and these days, i don't make anymore new baju kurung cause i guess i have a lot already. maybe 12? usually i'll just have one new baju kurung a year for Hari Raya.
Even for Hari Raya ( I think it's been 3 years already?) I always forget about the baju raya thingy. usually only during the middle or the end of fasting month that i'd remember i hadn't bought my baju raya yet. and to buy kain and to get it tailored would be difficult.
but thank god, my mom and my sisters always bought me the kain in advance and sent them to be tailored. it was only when my mom called and told me that she'd bought the kain and asked me which of my baju kurung did i want to send as sample for the kain, would i remember about the whole baju raya thingy.
Stylish? No!
I am not stylish. i am not even normal looking. i am quite messy. my friend would say i am very messy and shabby <--is that the word? i'll check my vocab later.
i admit i am.
i like seeing people dressing up stylishly. but i'm not one. back then, i did put some effort in trying to look good. but after a while, i didn't care anymore. i just lost interest.
in fact, i lost interest in many things.
i always wondered about how i should look, what i should wear, how should i act in front of people, how should i make friends etc. now, these things didn't bother me anymore. in the end, i'd just be the person i'm comfortable being, living in my own world.
I'm anti-social. i think that's the word. i don't hate people. i just don't feel comfortable around people. I feel awkward and weird. and then i'll act weird and awkward and different like i have a multiple personality disorder or something.
i suddenly don't know what to say anymore about this, so i'll stop here..
The most important persons in my life - my mom and my dad. I MISS THEM. i know i haven't been a good daughter, spending their money way too much and I'm so dumb in study, aish..but I really want to go home and see them so badly. and go to town together.
I'M HOMESICK T.T
Just a little bit more, Nae. Maybe next week, you can go back. *pats self*
Weird ahjusshi oppa!
I've figured the reason Teuk looks different compared to the past years. He shaved and trimmed his eyebrows, that's why.
Why? Just why?
HIS BUSHY EYEBROWS LOOKED FINE BEFORE. I really don't understand. His eyebrows now make him look fierce and - well, I HATE IT.
let the eyebrows grow again ahjusshi oppa. jebal~!
Teuk with short hair. i still can't accept it. I miss his longer hair and bangs! But I love his current hair colour. His short hair makes him look chubby. but his body is still like he's made of stick and bones only.
Never mind, i still love u even if u're stick and bones, ahjusshi. even if u're a retard or crazy or dumb or whatever, i'll still love u. cause u just make me insane everytime.
plus u've got the looks, money and the BMW.
who cares about the brain.
Teuk's cheesiness is seriously affecting me.
I'm dead if DIE HARD Teuk's fans read this. They might kill me just at the word 'crazy, retard and dumb' that i use for Teuk.
I don't mean it, u see~ it's just to explain circumstance. and i put "IF" there.. which implies possibilities. *gets stoned anyway*
MY WISH
I know for a fact that I WILL NEVER/ CAN NEVER marry leader-sshi. I no longer feel so disturbed by that fact. ( u must think i'm a retard to even think i've got a chance with him. if u feel so, u're correct. i am a retard.)
So now, my latest hobby is finding the ideal woman for ahjusshi oppa.
My wish is - I hope when the time is right, he will meet someone pretty, so pretty that he'll never see other girls besides her.
I hope she's supermodel-like. Beautiful body, beautiful face, tall, confident, warm, motherly, noonim-ly, cute, adorable, sexy, hot, awesome, funny and most importantly she loves ahjusshi oppa more than I love him.
She's gonna look stunning wearing the white wedding dress *cries. i shouldn't start this*
ok, i'll stop here. Ahjusshi oppa, don't marry too soon. u're gonna break so many hearts.
food
i want to go home. this semester i spent a lot of money. i didn't shop, really. all the money went to FOOD. yep, that explains my PROSPEROUS FAT. before this semester started, i was 47 kg. now, i've ganied 5 more kgs. i'm almost 52 kg now. i'm fat. i'm willing to admit that now.
when my mom called, she always tells me not to eat a lot, cause evrytime i go home, i just expand more and more. maybe she's afraid she wouldn't recognize me anymore. hahaha. sadly, her words - as much as i understand her concern, i just fail to oblige. Because i love to eat too much.
People eat to live, I LIVE TO EAT. I can't live without food. Who could?
When I'm stressed, i have to eat,
when I'm bored, i have to eat,
when I'm happy, i have to eat,
when i'm depressed, of course I need to eat a lot more.
Clothes
I haven't shop for a while. I only have a few jeans, 1 sweatpants, several t-shirts, few blouses and a couple of shoes and two flip flops.
but i do have quite a number of baju kurung. and these days, i don't make anymore new baju kurung cause i guess i have a lot already. maybe 12? usually i'll just have one new baju kurung a year for Hari Raya.
Even for Hari Raya ( I think it's been 3 years already?) I always forget about the baju raya thingy. usually only during the middle or the end of fasting month that i'd remember i hadn't bought my baju raya yet. and to buy kain and to get it tailored would be difficult.
but thank god, my mom and my sisters always bought me the kain in advance and sent them to be tailored. it was only when my mom called and told me that she'd bought the kain and asked me which of my baju kurung did i want to send as sample for the kain, would i remember about the whole baju raya thingy.
Stylish? No!
I am not stylish. i am not even normal looking. i am quite messy. my friend would say i am very messy and shabby <--is that the word? i'll check my vocab later.
i admit i am.
i like seeing people dressing up stylishly. but i'm not one. back then, i did put some effort in trying to look good. but after a while, i didn't care anymore. i just lost interest.
in fact, i lost interest in many things.
i always wondered about how i should look, what i should wear, how should i act in front of people, how should i make friends etc. now, these things didn't bother me anymore. in the end, i'd just be the person i'm comfortable being, living in my own world.
I'm anti-social. i think that's the word. i don't hate people. i just don't feel comfortable around people. I feel awkward and weird. and then i'll act weird and awkward and different like i have a multiple personality disorder or something.
i suddenly don't know what to say anymore about this, so i'll stop here..
The most important persons in my life - my mom and my dad. I MISS THEM. i know i haven't been a good daughter, spending their money way too much and I'm so dumb in study, aish..but I really want to go home and see them so badly. and go to town together.
I'M HOMESICK T.T
Just a little bit more, Nae. Maybe next week, you can go back. *pats self*
Weird ahjusshi oppa!
I've figured the reason Teuk looks different compared to the past years. He shaved and trimmed his eyebrows, that's why.
Why? Just why?
HIS BUSHY EYEBROWS LOOKED FINE BEFORE. I really don't understand. His eyebrows now make him look fierce and - well, I HATE IT.
let the eyebrows grow again ahjusshi oppa. jebal~!
Teuk with short hair. i still can't accept it. I miss his longer hair and bangs! But I love his current hair colour. His short hair makes him look chubby. but his body is still like he's made of stick and bones only.
Never mind, i still love u even if u're stick and bones, ahjusshi. even if u're a retard or crazy or dumb or whatever, i'll still love u. cause u just make me insane everytime.
plus u've got the looks, money and the BMW.
who cares about the brain.
Teuk's cheesiness is seriously affecting me.
I'm dead if DIE HARD Teuk's fans read this. They might kill me just at the word 'crazy, retard and dumb' that i use for Teuk.
I don't mean it, u see~ it's just to explain circumstance. and i put "IF" there.. which implies possibilities. *gets stoned anyway*
MY WISH
I know for a fact that I WILL NEVER/ CAN NEVER marry leader-sshi. I no longer feel so disturbed by that fact. ( u must think i'm a retard to even think i've got a chance with him. if u feel so, u're correct. i am a retard.)
So now, my latest hobby is finding the ideal woman for ahjusshi oppa.
My wish is - I hope when the time is right, he will meet someone pretty, so pretty that he'll never see other girls besides her.
I hope she's supermodel-like. Beautiful body, beautiful face, tall, confident, warm, motherly, noonim-ly, cute, adorable, sexy, hot, awesome, funny and most importantly she loves ahjusshi oppa more than I love him.
She's gonna look stunning wearing the white wedding dress *cries. i shouldn't start this*
ok, i'll stop here. Ahjusshi oppa, don't marry too soon. u're gonna break so many hearts.
only me.
almost everyone have gone back. only tini is still here with her sister. and they're going out rite now. the house is so quiet. it's too quiet, it's scary.
turned on Extreme on Media Player- so there's some kind of sound in this house. good thing i didn't watch Haunting in Connecticut documentary last nite.
If i did, i'd probably hang myself now out of regret.
called home and abah picked up the phone. talked to abah, n mak. it seemed so merry at home. there are so many people there. ah, i want to go home too!
Tastebud.
i read bout SJ's styles of eating, n read the comment. somebody posted something like "they don't eat veggies? no wonder they're so skinny"
don't ppl who EAT veggies that are usually skinny?
since when not eating veggies makes one skinny?
I don't eat veggies but why am i FAT?
turned on Extreme on Media Player- so there's some kind of sound in this house. good thing i didn't watch Haunting in Connecticut documentary last nite.
If i did, i'd probably hang myself now out of regret.
called home and abah picked up the phone. talked to abah, n mak. it seemed so merry at home. there are so many people there. ah, i want to go home too!
Tastebud.
i read bout SJ's styles of eating, n read the comment. somebody posted something like "they don't eat veggies? no wonder they're so skinny"
don't ppl who EAT veggies that are usually skinny?
since when not eating veggies makes one skinny?
I don't eat veggies but why am i FAT?
Height obsession
Today, should be the last day of AE making.
I am so yesterday. I know. I've just listened to Love Story by Taylor Swift recently and i really liked it. So I googled Taylor Swift and found out that she's 5' 11" . I didn't know she's that's tall. That's a half inch taller than Teuk.
And because lately I've been obsessed with height, I googled some celebrities' height.
What I found so far:
Selena Gomez : 5' 5"
Taylor Swift: 5' 11"
Emma Watson : 5' 6" / 5' 7"
Miley Cyrus : 5' 5"
Lindsay Lohan 5' 5"
Mila Kunis: 5' 2"
My height as of now is 4' 9" . Short, I know. That's why I'm targeting to at least grow 6 to 7 more inches and become 5' 4" by the end of 2010.
But I share the same height as Mari Yaguchi, a Japanese singer, an ex member of Morning Musume. She's also 4' 9" and she's 2, 3 years older than me?
If the inches growing is a success, maybe when I go to Korea someday, I can go to Sukira and ask Teuk to try it too so that he could grow a couple inches more and become 6' and doesn't have to feel short anymore cause he's just 5' 10" .
Frankly I don't think he's short but then, Korean women are just getting taller these days. With average height of 165 - 173 cm, that's quite some height for women. Plus they're wearing heels, that's why he looks short next to them.
Erika Sawajiri Married!
If you've watched the Japanese drama "One litre of tears", you'll know her. She plays the lead role, Aya. Her real name is Erika Sawajiri, 23 years old.
And she's married in January 2009 to a media tycoon ( i think) well, his husband is very influential in the entertainment business (he's best friends with Marc Jacobs), i can say that much.
He's 40 something and frankly, I think she should choose a better man. More good looking maybe, cause she's so pretty and young but then - yeah. He's RICH.
maybe she prefers someone who can secure her? I'm being judgmental. maybe she really loves him, i don't know, do i?
Yeah, but the rumours about her marriage contract sounds just as interesting as her wedding.
Some of the content of the contract among others:
- if any party cheats, he/she will have to compensate the other party with some sum ( I think it's USD 110K?)
- if he have sex with anybody, he'll have to compensate her USD220K(?)
AND SHOULD THERE BE A DIVORCE, SHE'LL receive 90% OF HIS WEALTH.
Maybe it's just rumours. IDK.
But if it's true, I have to say she's really smart. And if it's true I wonder how could the guy sign the contract, acknowledging the fact that he could possibly risk 90% of his wealth?
Maybe it's LOVE.
Yeah, LOVE is the only thing that can make u think even the most irrational thing is sensible and right.
Did I just turn this blog into a gossip blog?
I am so yesterday. I know. I've just listened to Love Story by Taylor Swift recently and i really liked it. So I googled Taylor Swift and found out that she's 5' 11" . I didn't know she's that's tall. That's a half inch taller than Teuk.
And because lately I've been obsessed with height, I googled some celebrities' height.
What I found so far:
Selena Gomez : 5' 5"
Taylor Swift: 5' 11"
Emma Watson : 5' 6" / 5' 7"
Miley Cyrus : 5' 5"
Lindsay Lohan 5' 5"
Mila Kunis: 5' 2"
My height as of now is 4' 9" . Short, I know. That's why I'm targeting to at least grow 6 to 7 more inches and become 5' 4" by the end of 2010.
But I share the same height as Mari Yaguchi, a Japanese singer, an ex member of Morning Musume. She's also 4' 9" and she's 2, 3 years older than me?
If the inches growing is a success, maybe when I go to Korea someday, I can go to Sukira and ask Teuk to try it too so that he could grow a couple inches more and become 6' and doesn't have to feel short anymore cause he's just 5' 10" .
Frankly I don't think he's short but then, Korean women are just getting taller these days. With average height of 165 - 173 cm, that's quite some height for women. Plus they're wearing heels, that's why he looks short next to them.
Erika Sawajiri Married!
If you've watched the Japanese drama "One litre of tears", you'll know her. She plays the lead role, Aya. Her real name is Erika Sawajiri, 23 years old.
And she's married in January 2009 to a media tycoon ( i think) well, his husband is very influential in the entertainment business (he's best friends with Marc Jacobs), i can say that much.
He's 40 something and frankly, I think she should choose a better man. More good looking maybe, cause she's so pretty and young but then - yeah. He's RICH.
maybe she prefers someone who can secure her? I'm being judgmental. maybe she really loves him, i don't know, do i?
Yeah, but the rumours about her marriage contract sounds just as interesting as her wedding.
Some of the content of the contract among others:
- if any party cheats, he/she will have to compensate the other party with some sum ( I think it's USD 110K?)
- if he have sex with anybody, he'll have to compensate her USD220K(?)
AND SHOULD THERE BE A DIVORCE, SHE'LL receive 90% OF HIS WEALTH.
Maybe it's just rumours. IDK.
But if it's true, I have to say she's really smart. And if it's true I wonder how could the guy sign the contract, acknowledging the fact that he could possibly risk 90% of his wealth?
Maybe it's LOVE.
Yeah, LOVE is the only thing that can make u think even the most irrational thing is sensible and right.
Did I just turn this blog into a gossip blog?
fandom and fight
these days i seemed to have been unlucky a lot. and there's just so many bad things happening.
and today i had a fight with two ELFs on sj forum because i was offended by their replies of my questions. and i replied back, pointing out my dissatisfation of their replies which i think were rather cold and rude.
maybe i was just being sensitive. idk. what's wrong with me these days.
frankly i don't know. i'm so messed up.
after i replied, i just left the forum. damn. this is why sometimes i hate fandom. there's always some ppl who'll screw the name of the fandom.
but since i'll still go around the forum i decided to just forget it. i guess maybe i was just being sensitive. since i don't even understand myself now, i better stay out of trouble. so after their second replies, i apologized ( since it seemed that they took the time explaining, so maybe they didn't mean it.) and thank them for their hard work.
in the end, we're all still ELFs. so why fight?
i think i really need a break. and fix myself before i started something else. i seriously need a break from everything. i'm so messed up right now.
i want to go home ASAP.
and today i had a fight with two ELFs on sj forum because i was offended by their replies of my questions. and i replied back, pointing out my dissatisfation of their replies which i think were rather cold and rude.
maybe i was just being sensitive. idk. what's wrong with me these days.
frankly i don't know. i'm so messed up.
after i replied, i just left the forum. damn. this is why sometimes i hate fandom. there's always some ppl who'll screw the name of the fandom.
but since i'll still go around the forum i decided to just forget it. i guess maybe i was just being sensitive. since i don't even understand myself now, i better stay out of trouble. so after their second replies, i apologized ( since it seemed that they took the time explaining, so maybe they didn't mean it.) and thank them for their hard work.
in the end, we're all still ELFs. so why fight?
i think i really need a break. and fix myself before i started something else. i seriously need a break from everything. i'm so messed up right now.
i want to go home ASAP.
this date, two years ago
On this date, two years ago - April, 19, 2007 - Super Junior Leeteuk, Kyuhyun, Eunhyuk and Shindong were involved in a car accident.
Kyuhyun and Leeteuk were badly injured while Eunhyuk and Shindong were luckier, as they had minor injuries.
Leeteuk had to be hospitalized and he recieved 170 stitches on his back from removal of glass shreds.
Kyu suffered from broken ribs, serious bleeding and some abdominal injuries.
I didn't know them yet by that time but when i learnt about the accident in October, it still shocked me. By that time, Teuk and Kyu had gotten better(Kyu still in process of recovery)
I finally understood the feeling when they made their comeback for Don't Don. It felt overwhelming seeing 13 of them on stage again - together, after the fatal accident.
APRIL 19, 2007 - It will definitely be the most unforgettable day for us, fans.
I wish them health and success and prosperity in the coming years.
*This feels like New Year, making wishes and looking back at the past. *
Kyuhyun and Leeteuk were badly injured while Eunhyuk and Shindong were luckier, as they had minor injuries.
Leeteuk had to be hospitalized and he recieved 170 stitches on his back from removal of glass shreds.
Kyu suffered from broken ribs, serious bleeding and some abdominal injuries.
I didn't know them yet by that time but when i learnt about the accident in October, it still shocked me. By that time, Teuk and Kyu had gotten better(Kyu still in process of recovery)
I finally understood the feeling when they made their comeback for Don't Don. It felt overwhelming seeing 13 of them on stage again - together, after the fatal accident.
APRIL 19, 2007 - It will definitely be the most unforgettable day for us, fans.
I wish them health and success and prosperity in the coming years.
*This feels like New Year, making wishes and looking back at the past. *
life isn't always rainbows
life isn't always rainbows and vibrant colours,
sometimes, it's black and white, and you can hardly see where you are going.
But it's the black and white that makes you look back and think, learn and grow.
from that, you paint the black and white into rainbows again.
Life is a choice, you choose the way you want your life to be.
i look forward life once i've graduated. although i can't picture what i'll be or do, still, i look forward to it. for the past five years, i think i've learnt a lot and discovered a lot, although maybe it wasn't much compared to others.
in 2010, i want to be a better person, i want to achieve something and be someone. maybe not someone famous, but a better person. i don't want to feel intimidated about myself anymore. and i hope i'll have better self-esteem and people would not look down on me anymore.
maybe i'd go travelling too, if i have enough money. and of course the first place i'll visit is Seoul, the city where my 'soul' lies in. so many things would have changed by then.
will i still be a Super Junior fan?
will i still be head over heels for Teuk?
I really don't know. I hope I will be Super Junior fan forever. I WANT TO. I'm always proud of the fact that I am an ELF.
But by that time, 2010..
- Super Junior will probably be on hiatus.
- Maybe only the sub-units that will be active.
- Teuk's hairstyles would have changed a lot already.
- Everyone would've changed a lot too. And me, as well.
Teuk probably has got himself a gf, or maybe he'll still be the same lonely leader-sshi. Whichever it is, I hope he'll become a stronger person.
By that time, 2010 - I hope that there would not be so much bitterness anymore in my life. i want to forget who i am right now and turn over a new leaf.
I want to be a stronger and better person too.
To GOD
To myself
To my parents
To my family
To my friends
AND
To Super Junior (<-- this was kinda weird)
Haha, I'll be a better ELF! ^^
2010 Nae, Fighting!!
sometimes, it's black and white, and you can hardly see where you are going.
But it's the black and white that makes you look back and think, learn and grow.
from that, you paint the black and white into rainbows again.
Life is a choice, you choose the way you want your life to be.
i look forward life once i've graduated. although i can't picture what i'll be or do, still, i look forward to it. for the past five years, i think i've learnt a lot and discovered a lot, although maybe it wasn't much compared to others.
in 2010, i want to be a better person, i want to achieve something and be someone. maybe not someone famous, but a better person. i don't want to feel intimidated about myself anymore. and i hope i'll have better self-esteem and people would not look down on me anymore.
maybe i'd go travelling too, if i have enough money. and of course the first place i'll visit is Seoul, the city where my 'soul' lies in. so many things would have changed by then.
will i still be a Super Junior fan?
will i still be head over heels for Teuk?
I really don't know. I hope I will be Super Junior fan forever. I WANT TO. I'm always proud of the fact that I am an ELF.
But by that time, 2010..
- Super Junior will probably be on hiatus.
- Maybe only the sub-units that will be active.
- Teuk's hairstyles would have changed a lot already.
- Everyone would've changed a lot too. And me, as well.
Teuk probably has got himself a gf, or maybe he'll still be the same lonely leader-sshi. Whichever it is, I hope he'll become a stronger person.
By that time, 2010 - I hope that there would not be so much bitterness anymore in my life. i want to forget who i am right now and turn over a new leaf.
I want to be a stronger and better person too.
To GOD
To myself
To my parents
To my family
To my friends
AND
To Super Junior (<-- this was kinda weird)
Haha, I'll be a better ELF! ^^
2010 Nae, Fighting!!
A Tall Dream
I've just made a mid-year resolution.
By the end of 2010, I must be at least 5' 4" .
My goal as of now is to grow at least 6 more inches and stand at 160cm ^^ But that will still be a few months away before I could get started.
But it's ok. I'll wait.
If I'm 160cm, I'll be Fany's height? Or should I go for 163cm?
By the end of 2010, I must be at least 5' 4" .
My goal as of now is to grow at least 6 more inches and stand at 160cm ^^ But that will still be a few months away before I could get started.
But it's ok. I'll wait.
If I'm 160cm, I'll be Fany's height? Or should I go for 163cm?
work. depression. and leader-sshi
my brain expires. that or it refuses to work. and i've done nothing. no progress. nothing. why am i like this?
i want to go home so bad. i miss home. i really miss home. i miss sleeping on the bed. i miss everything at home.
"..Donghae-ah, you've worked so hard. without you, there's no Super Junior," - Leeteuk
"No, hyung! Without you, there's no Super Junior!" - Donghae
"I know." - Leeteuk
Come To Play - without Eeteuk and Kibum.
- i didn't plan to watch it at first cause there's no Eeteuk.
(I claimed i love 13, but cause of Teuk, i won't watch->> me and my endless biasness)
- so in the end i watched.
- it feels empty. suju without Teuk feels incomplete. it doesn't feel as funny and good.
- despite that, i managed to understand the first 5 minutes of the talk ->> mostly when they talk about hangeng's popularity in china and a few others. here and there.
- other than that, i dun understand. I still feel sad Eeteuk couldn't make it. *cries in a corner*
i'm so messed up. i dun even know what the heck is up with me?
i want to go home so bad. i miss home. i really miss home. i miss sleeping on the bed. i miss everything at home.
"..Donghae-ah, you've worked so hard. without you, there's no Super Junior," - Leeteuk
"No, hyung! Without you, there's no Super Junior!" - Donghae
"I know." - Leeteuk
Come To Play - without Eeteuk and Kibum.
- i didn't plan to watch it at first cause there's no Eeteuk.
(I claimed i love 13, but cause of Teuk, i won't watch->> me and my endless biasness)
- so in the end i watched.
- it feels empty. suju without Teuk feels incomplete. it doesn't feel as funny and good.
- despite that, i managed to understand the first 5 minutes of the talk ->> mostly when they talk about hangeng's popularity in china and a few others. here and there.
- other than that, i dun understand. I still feel sad Eeteuk couldn't make it. *cries in a corner*
i'm so messed up. i dun even know what the heck is up with me?
once upon a me
the death of me
- still not out of the stressful period.
- assignments, assignments n lots more assignments.
- last night i lost mind n became a retard.
NAETARD.
ah, this is tiring.
Kattun - Rescue
-this song's cool
- the song is Rescue by Kattun.
- i fell instantly in love with this song the first time i listened to it.
- there's a feeling of Linkin Park to it.
- and Jin's bridge part sort of reminds me of Evanescence
ahjusshi oppa
- his cyworld layout is (?)
- i'm finished.
- what do i do after this?
- ah, really, why? right. i know.
- but why now?
END OF SEMESTER COME SOON! AND ASSIGNMENTS GO AWAY! SHUUUHHH~!!
- still not out of the stressful period.
- assignments, assignments n lots more assignments.
- last night i lost mind n became a retard.
NAETARD.
ah, this is tiring.
Kattun - Rescue
-this song's cool
- the song is Rescue by Kattun.
- i fell instantly in love with this song the first time i listened to it.
- there's a feeling of Linkin Park to it.
- and Jin's bridge part sort of reminds me of Evanescence
ahjusshi oppa
- his cyworld layout is (?)
- i'm finished.
- what do i do after this?
- ah, really, why? right. i know.
- but why now?
END OF SEMESTER COME SOON! AND ASSIGNMENTS GO AWAY! SHUUUHHH~!!
dunia yang kecil dan gila ini
AKU BENCI ASSIGNMENT!!!!
AKU BENCI ASSIGNMENT!!!!
AKU BENCI ASSIGNMENT!!!!
AHHHHHH!!!
Kecelakaan apekah ini? (Nadrah, 2009)
sbb BOSAN dan MALAS tgk assignment, aku tgk Youtube. Suju menang TRIPLE CROWN at Inkigayo. (winning 3 weeks in a row) Yay!!!
ahjusshi oppa, anda sgt diam hari ini. adakah anda speechless, oppa? adakah anda terkejut dgn kemenangan anda?
Anda memang sungguh berbeza apabila kamera tidak fokus kepada anda.
Dihadapan kamera, anda sungguh bubbly dan riang ria RIBENA tetapi OFF SCREEN, anda tidak berbicara sepatah pun.
Ahjusshi oppa,anda telah bekerja keras maka tahniah.bukan shj diatas kemenangan suju pada hari ini,tetapi kerana selepas 2 tahun, anda masih lagi menjadi pojaan hatiku~~
walaupun anda ibarat stick and bones yg sungguh fragile dan mungkin akan terbang ditiup angin, aku tetap tegar menyukaimu, oppa.
aku sungguh berkeju sekali lagi nampaknye..
AKU BENCI ASSIGNMENT!!!!
AKU BENCI ASSIGNMENT!!!!
AHHHHHH!!!
Kecelakaan apekah ini? (Nadrah, 2009)
sbb BOSAN dan MALAS tgk assignment, aku tgk Youtube. Suju menang TRIPLE CROWN at Inkigayo. (winning 3 weeks in a row) Yay!!!
ahjusshi oppa, anda sgt diam hari ini. adakah anda speechless, oppa? adakah anda terkejut dgn kemenangan anda?
Anda memang sungguh berbeza apabila kamera tidak fokus kepada anda.
Dihadapan kamera, anda sungguh bubbly dan riang ria RIBENA tetapi OFF SCREEN, anda tidak berbicara sepatah pun.
Ahjusshi oppa,anda telah bekerja keras maka tahniah.bukan shj diatas kemenangan suju pada hari ini,tetapi kerana selepas 2 tahun, anda masih lagi menjadi pojaan hatiku~~
walaupun anda ibarat stick and bones yg sungguh fragile dan mungkin akan terbang ditiup angin, aku tetap tegar menyukaimu, oppa.
aku sungguh berkeju sekali lagi nampaknye..
SOME CRAPS THAT I NEED TO SAY
My Stand, My LOVE, MY HAPPINESS
I think I've gotten pretty sick by now by people who keep on condemning Super Junior. Back then i used to feel very hurt whenever people say bad things about Suju like they can't sing, they can't dance, they're not good enough and their songs are rubbish etc etc.
Lately, i don't bother anymore to feel hurt.
Cuz it's so PATHETIC.
all these people. they don't even know Suju and yet they speak as though they know them so damn well and try to put up an argument with me about Suju.
I'd say you just go do some research first on suju and get back to me.
If you don't even know what Suju is about, don't speak rubbish about Suju with me.
I know the bois enough for me to decide whether I should like them or not.
Super Junior might not be the best singers, best performers etc but to me they're always the best!
THEY MAKE ME HAPPY AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS.
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OK. All ANGST out.
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WEEKEND
- No more class! Yay! But there are still loads of work.
- SJ didn't win today at MuBank. I kinda expected it. But that tiny bit of hope somehow still managed to get the better of me. I was quite sad. But oh well, at least the bois did well. ^^
- They won yesterday on M! Countdown although they were not present.
- MuCore is tomorrow and Inkigayo the next day. I hope they win TRIPLE CROWN! ^^
- still kinda sad that Teuk ahjusshi didn't film Come To Play with the others.
- just because he's not in ONE variety show, i feel like HE'S GONE forever.
- i'm still hoping some of them will film FAMILY OUTING!
- and I sooooo want ROYAL PIRATES to come to Star King and play Sorry Sorry ROCK VERSION in front of Suju.. I hope RP change their mind and accept the offer. Please! You guys are awesome, you should go to STAR KING!
- I miss home. i feel like I haven't gone home since forever. when was the last century i was home? 19th century?
And cause i need to lift up my moods after days of endless stress.
Guess what? Teuk's GIFS again. HAHAHA ^^ I always feel so happy doing the GIFS! ^^
But first of..the bunch of my fav dorks~ ^^
re-enacting his scene in All About Eve ^^
wae kureo ni? - leader-sshi ^^
Yesung just loves his hyung way too much ^^
I think I've gotten pretty sick by now by people who keep on condemning Super Junior. Back then i used to feel very hurt whenever people say bad things about Suju like they can't sing, they can't dance, they're not good enough and their songs are rubbish etc etc.
Lately, i don't bother anymore to feel hurt.
Cuz it's so PATHETIC.
all these people. they don't even know Suju and yet they speak as though they know them so damn well and try to put up an argument with me about Suju.
I'd say you just go do some research first on suju and get back to me.
If you don't even know what Suju is about, don't speak rubbish about Suju with me.
I know the bois enough for me to decide whether I should like them or not.
Super Junior might not be the best singers, best performers etc but to me they're always the best!
THEY MAKE ME HAPPY AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS.
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OK. All ANGST out.
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WEEKEND
- No more class! Yay! But there are still loads of work.
- SJ didn't win today at MuBank. I kinda expected it. But that tiny bit of hope somehow still managed to get the better of me. I was quite sad. But oh well, at least the bois did well. ^^
- They won yesterday on M! Countdown although they were not present.
- MuCore is tomorrow and Inkigayo the next day. I hope they win TRIPLE CROWN! ^^
- still kinda sad that Teuk ahjusshi didn't film Come To Play with the others.
- just because he's not in ONE variety show, i feel like HE'S GONE forever.
- i'm still hoping some of them will film FAMILY OUTING!
- and I sooooo want ROYAL PIRATES to come to Star King and play Sorry Sorry ROCK VERSION in front of Suju.. I hope RP change their mind and accept the offer. Please! You guys are awesome, you should go to STAR KING!
- I miss home. i feel like I haven't gone home since forever. when was the last century i was home? 19th century?
And cause i need to lift up my moods after days of endless stress.
Guess what? Teuk's GIFS again. HAHAHA ^^ I always feel so happy doing the GIFS! ^^
But first of..the bunch of my fav dorks~ ^^
re-enacting his scene in All About Eve ^^
wae kureo ni? - leader-sshi ^^
Yesung just loves his hyung way too much ^^
limping. Teuk. saranghanda
work.
- CALL assignment is pretty interesting. a courseware.
- maybe cuz it's a computer/software thingy.
- like PS or IR, Virtualdub whatsoever.
Teuk's phail - not!
- Teuk's got one english line in 3rd album.
- i dun remember which song.
- but- but - his english was perfect pronouncing the line.
- hearing him speaks perfect english is - weird.
- cuz i've only heard of his engrish all this while.
- like when he said "oh, reeree?" (oh, really?)
- HAHAHAHA - SUPER CUTE!!!
- but he's been weird lately.
- i wonder what's up with him.
- AHJUSSHI OPPA, DON'T FALL SICK. ^^
HeeTeuk LOVE.
- AH. i came across a video at youtube.
- reading Hee's cyworld entry about Teuk is making me teary.
- Hee does love Teuk.
- Ahjusshi, uhdee sseo?? bogo shipda T.T
- CALL assignment is pretty interesting. a courseware.
- maybe cuz it's a computer/software thingy.
- like PS or IR, Virtualdub whatsoever.
Teuk's phail - not!
- Teuk's got one english line in 3rd album.
- i dun remember which song.
- but- but - his english was perfect pronouncing the line.
- hearing him speaks perfect english is - weird.
- cuz i've only heard of his engrish all this while.
- like when he said "oh, reeree?" (oh, really?)
- HAHAHAHA - SUPER CUTE!!!
- but he's been weird lately.
- i wonder what's up with him.
- AHJUSSHI OPPA, DON'T FALL SICK. ^^
HeeTeuk LOVE.
- AH. i came across a video at youtube.
- reading Hee's cyworld entry about Teuk is making me teary.
- Hee does love Teuk.
- Ahjusshi, uhdee sseo?? bogo shipda T.T
this and that
3rd Album
- I've got my hand on the 3rd album! it arrived 2/3 days ago, but I've got it today. ^^
- the booklet is beautiful~ ^^ I love it! Thanks KakNor!
- Nomu kamsahamnida, unni! ^__^
WhiTeuk Complex
- If Teuk's got white complex, I've got Teuk's complex.
- I don't really wear white often, even if i wear white, it'll be just a t-shirt or a headscarf
- but eversince the spread of Teuk's white complex, I tried to be one too
- so i tried putting on white sweatshirt, on top of a white tee and a white scarf.
- and the result - it feels so weird and awkward.
- i'd never worn so much white on myself.
- in a way it feels good. i feel like i sparkle. bwahahaha ^^
Teuk's cyworld translation - 090121
- I've got my hand on the 3rd album! it arrived 2/3 days ago, but I've got it today. ^^
- the booklet is beautiful~ ^^ I love it! Thanks KakNor!
- Nomu kamsahamnida, unni! ^__^
WhiTeuk Complex
- If Teuk's got white complex, I've got Teuk's complex.
- I don't really wear white often, even if i wear white, it'll be just a t-shirt or a headscarf
- but eversince the spread of Teuk's white complex, I tried to be one too
- so i tried putting on white sweatshirt, on top of a white tee and a white scarf.
- and the result - it feels so weird and awkward.
- i'd never worn so much white on myself.
- in a way it feels good. i feel like i sparkle. bwahahaha ^^
Teuk's cyworld translation - 090121
(It) wont’ be inferior even after going through many decolourization (processes) and dying..
The quality of your fine hair…
*your silky hair, ahhhh~*
Even with UV rays and strong light waves..It won’t go faint even if there’s insufficient sleep
*even sunrays doesn't dare to do damage to your perfect hair*
Your deep and distant eyes…..
*melts me and they're so deep that i'm so drown in them*
Songs, radio, and many other programs which requested you for a “BoBo” but you refused to give in..
Your lips…
*your lips are just too perfect*
If you broke your hand, you’d break a Casanova’s prejudice (?)..
Your beautiful hands…
*your hand is the most beautiful man's hand i've ever seen*
There won’t be any difference even with lots of make-up or insufficient sleep..
Your glowing and beautiful skin..
*i so want ur skin, oppa! *cries*
Are you human for sure…
*no u're not!*
Or are you a doll….
*u're as beautiful as doll*
Or are you really an angel….?
*course u're an angel, how else can u be so perfect?*
Mummy…I want to get married to someone like this…ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
*lol, yes, i want to marry u, ahjusshi oppa*
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Please~~~~~~~~This fella’s popularity......
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*the black words are teuk's entry*
*the blue words are my spazzing of Teuk ^^*
Original Source; 박정수 미니홈피
Credits; OnlySJ13 + superduperlove.wordpress.comi laughed outloud reading this entry, but everything he wrote is indeed true.he's just too beautiful for words.
and his comment of how girls want to marry someone like him is O.o
it is true tho', at least there are thousands who feel so.
and i am one of them.
what a competition!
Pingu Pingu Pingu NAD!!!
- again, changing the layout.
- why doesn't cuztomized one have comments box and link button to earlier/older posts?
- no header. how sad.
Apparently, I've got a pet.
It's a pingu and funny how it looks so much like Nadrah.
Meet PinguNad(that's her name)
She can do freestyle dancing especially popping...
And she can make her head floats in the air...
She can also do land surfing^^
And she exercises well..and happily...
I'll bet no one has this kind of pet. it's one of a kind. How do you like it?
- why doesn't cuztomized one have comments box and link button to earlier/older posts?
- no header. how sad.
Apparently, I've got a pet.
It's a pingu and funny how it looks so much like Nadrah.
Meet PinguNad(that's her name)
She can do freestyle dancing especially popping...
And she can make her head floats in the air...
She can also do land surfing^^
And she exercises well..and happily...
I'll bet no one has this kind of pet. it's one of a kind. How do you like it?
Happy Birthday, Lee Hyukjae!
Saengil chukahamnida!
Saengil chukahamnida!
Saranghanun Lee Hyukjae!
Saengil chukahamnida!
- Today, Hyukjae turns 24 (in korean year)
- technically he's my age > 86-er
- they celebrated his birthday at sukira ^^
- wish all 13 were there but oh, well
- hope they celebrate together later at Han River :)
Hyuk with Hae*i just realized i didn't have that much pic of Hyuk.
the world of entertainment
> SJ didn't win today at MuBank.
> the No.1 went to Davichi.
> at least they did the encore happily with Davichi in the end. ^^
Lollipop MV is out! love the song and MV! so colourful and bubbly :)
*i'll just ignore whatever bad news i read. why is the world such a cruel place? *sighs*
- love Sandara Park's broomstick hair - reminds me of Chibi Usagi's sailor something from SailorMoon. I've always loved that broomstick hair ^^
- love the vibrant coloured outfits!
- CL's awesome. she stood out. she kinda looked like PCD's Nicole.
- TOP and GD are too cute and hawt!
- changed the layout. like it? not the best but better, i guess.
- the comments box are not available, it's pretty sad, but just use the tagboard for anything.
- the links didn't come out. idk why. will try to sort it out later.
> the No.1 went to Davichi.
> at least they did the encore happily with Davichi in the end. ^^
Lollipop MV is out! love the song and MV! so colourful and bubbly :)
*i'll just ignore whatever bad news i read. why is the world such a cruel place? *sighs*
- love Sandara Park's broomstick hair - reminds me of Chibi Usagi's sailor something from SailorMoon. I've always loved that broomstick hair ^^
- love the vibrant coloured outfits!
- CL's awesome. she stood out. she kinda looked like PCD's Nicole.
- TOP and GD are too cute and hawt!
EDIT.EDIT.EDIT
- changed the layout. like it? not the best but better, i guess.
- the comments box are not available, it's pretty sad, but just use the tagboard for anything.
- the links didn't come out. idk why. will try to sort it out later.
13 reunion
it's not 11 or 12..It's 13
13!
KIBUMMIE was with the other 12 at Yamaha event in Bangkok yesterday!!!
finally!!
Kibum-ah, where did you go??
PLEASE DON'T GO MISSING EVER AGAIN..
kibum-ah, at least be there at Music Bank this Friday!
n win the No.1 again, this time as 13, jebal~~
Kibum-ah, bogoshipda~
13!
KIBUMMIE was with the other 12 at Yamaha event in Bangkok yesterday!!!
finally!!
Kibum-ah, where did you go??
PLEASE DON'T GO MISSING EVER AGAIN..
kibum-ah, at least be there at Music Bank this Friday!
n win the No.1 again, this time as 13, jebal~~
Kibum-ah, bogoshipda~
13 @ Yamaha Motor Show, BANGKOK:
http://asiaidol.bluegy.com/koreanstars_photo_activities.php?page=1&StarID=378
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