Happy! Go!

Ayien said my blog is scary(i think besides me, she's d only person who's actually reading this blog..ahahaha~)..now that i think about it, i think i wrote too much unhappiness here..haha~

i should write 'bout happy happy things from now on..i finally get a life today..i wasn't sleepy in class today despite the fact that i slept at 7 a.m..

after class i watched the Exploration of Human Body episode 12 again..with Ayien..i downloaded the HQ..the subs are not out yet..so cute~

But Eeteuk looked weird in d water..His nose looked big,ahaha~!!He looked so funny!!

And Heechul's face was really..bad??I mean, he has all these marks on his face..i thought he's one of those who have perfectly flawless complexion..(but i still like heechul~ )n altho' i don't understand what he's saying, he's still very funny..^_^

n eeteuk's face is really flawless..nothing..there's absolutely nothing on his face..(how could he has a complexion that all girls dream of having?)

the internet speed is as good as at home now ^_^ haengbokhapnida~

download! download! download! ahaha~

downloading...
- exploration of human body 11 english subbed..
- more super junior~!

but exploration of human body will end soon T.T
this sunday's episode 13 will be the last episode..
i dun want it to end..i love the show~

i hope the PDs will continue d show..pls pls pls (begging)

going home soon..why is it that i have this funny feeling that scary things might happen??

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i just hope i'll still be alive..ahaha~

Erasing Blackness~

it's 6.30 am in d morning..still working on SLA..i was really sleepy n moody..
decided to watch Exploration of Human Body episode 12 that i downloaded yesterday..

so funny and cute~mood suddenly changed..flowery feelings~Suju oppa, u always cheer up my days!!hehe..i should stop being upset..it'll just makes me age faster..

it's quiet..of course, it's dawn..why do i feel so blissful in this quietness..maybe the world is not all black..i should enjoy this moment~

i wanna sleep..i need 2 read shakespeare..i need to prepare 4 my quiz..i need 2 wash my clothes..ah, so many things!!

.darn tired.

i don't wanna care anymore.

.The blackness of the world.

bad week.. furious + mad + hurt..all happened at once..i wish i could just laugh over these stupid things but i cudn't feel a thing xcept that it hurts..

It's black everywhere..
why is there so many blackness in this world?

Work.

Lots of work..Should i laugh? Adding on the stress..Working very slow..My mind's slow too today..

went to see my lecturer, asked her for her phone no. strangely when she told me, i couldn't interpret the numbers..as if i never knew what the numbers are in English..i couldn't make out what's 6 or 5 and even 3 and 0..my mind's gettin' pretty strange lately..

Lots of work..ah, already mentioned it..Should make a list of to-do things cuz i'll probably forget 'em later on..

must finish some of my work today, so tomorrow i can get a life..

i wish there's no mid-term break this sem..then i dun have to feel so burdened ...um, i have d strangest thoughts lately..

.You broke my heart.

those painful words are slowly leaving me now,but not the wound..
why is it so painful?

do u hate me already..u've just killed me..

am i selfish if i say that i'm hurt??
those words really leave me a wound..
i was tryin' to fix things up..
i thought i'd have the chance..
but i guess it can't be fixed now..

why can't u trust my judgment?
why can't u trust me?
why can't u?
i'm so hurt..
i was wrong..
i still am..
it's my fault..

but ur words today hurt me the most...
i'd rather u kill me..

Chinese New Year, lai lai lai~

finally i can download using clubbox..it's not as complicated as i thought, despite of all the korean characters that i couldn't even read, i finally registered,yay..!!

Back in shah alam..the internet connection is just so-so..but it's ok..at least it's finally playing the youtube videos..

can't expect to download much except for small files like youtube videos..even small files sumtimes are takin' ages to finish downloading..

4 more days for Chinese New Year holiday..going home~yay, home's internet connection is the best!!

my math skill is at a critical point.. sometimes i even got it wrong calculating single numbers.. it makes me dislike calculating even more..

i'll be presenting Sonnet 53 tomorrow..i'm nervous..

i need to buy the Shakespeare's book..in Mid Valley..ahh~i dun wanna go there alone but i dun have any choice..

my Mp3's usb is stucked.. so i couldn't charged it..the battery's empty..poor mp3, i'll take u to some shop when i have a free time..

i forgot to budget my meals which causes me to overspend my money..need to make a new list..buy ink, shakespeare, house rent etc..

i bought 2 garbage bags yesterday but i left 'em at my sister's house..why is it i always forget all these important things??

i think i have an anger management problem..tho' i try to behave better, but it's just there..

i think i better keep my mouth shut 'bout everythin'..that way, i won't hurt other people n i won't get hurt too..

at the end it's just about me..

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am i really selfish??

i'll kill you next time

bad day yesterday..
darn stupid cab..
darn mindless ticket counter person..
darn note..
darn everythin'...!!
i'd nver been this mad for so long..

*Edit

edited out all the curses.i was so mad that i said all these things..

Ohisashiburi~

We finally got our Streamyx..which is great! But it's really slow..i don't know what's the problem..

they said that the internet connection encountered some problem yesterday so i dun know how long it will go on like this..

it's so frustrating..i hope it gets better soon..pls!!it's killing me!!

MY FAMILY'S COMING~~~

mom,dad n my two sisters will come tomorrow..to my sister's place in serdang.. so i'll be going there as well..i'm looking forward to it..

i mean that i ended last year with some 'bitter' memories so i'm hoping to start the new year with a better me and try to treat everyone else better too..

Mom,dad..I'll try to be a better daughter..Sorry 'bout what happened the last time~

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I LOVE YOU so so much~

MY LOVE FOR EETEUK~

i was browsing thru a blog, reading 'bout super junior ( which the owner of the blog also likes Eeteuk n even claims herself as Mrs Eeteuk which of course drives me 'Huh??'[raising eyebrows] a bit) *actually upset T.T

but then there's probably thousands of girls out there who probably love Eeteuk more than I do..

(despite the fact that i think my love for him couldn't beat anyone else's, there's always others who's even more crazy 'bout him more than i do..)aish, wut do u expect,nae..??

But Eeteuk oppa, i still LOVE you nevertheless!!

Although there's a thousand or million of others who love you, i will still LOVE you..

Oppa, even if you find a gorgeous girl and fall in love with her, i will still LOVE you..

Even if you don't even know me, i will still LOVE you..

Oppa, saranghae yo...!!

*EDIT - (need to respect others~)

And to the other girls who also LOVE Eeteuk oppa..

well, what i wanna say is, we may not know each other, but we know Eeteuk oppa..so let's continue to SUPPORT and LOVE Eeteuk oppa!!

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Eeteuk oppa lovers, let's spread Eeteuk's love~~

iPod dream~

ah, this was what i originally wanted to mention but i got carried away with Eeteuk's fangirling thingy..

ok, so at 'Mrs.Eeteuk's blog, i saw the pix of ipod nano n ipod classic..n whoa~they're so irresistible..i want one!!

she even have the Marry U performance on it, which makes me want it EVEN more..so i can carry super junior everywhere i go..but the price - T.T

ah~maybe i should just forget it for now..but i want to take Eeteuk oppa with me everywhere I go.. T.T

*imagining iPod with Eeteuk oppa in it..watching oppa's pelvic thrust dancing while waiting for the train, wahhh, it's too perfect~

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someone pls buy me an iPod~ [BEGGING]

IN NEED OF HARD DISC..STUPID NERO!

suddenly there seems to be a lot of things to buy..i need to buy an external hard disc too..my hard disc is almost full..

i need to store all my suju files in one place that is handy enough so that i can easily take them everywhere in case i go back or go to my sister's house etc.

for now i just burned 'em in dvd n cd..speaking of dvd, the day before yesterday i tried to rewrite some files to my super junior DVD-RW..

since it's a DVD-RW,so i happily just add on files in it..

but the day before yesterday was the first time i burnt the files on this pc (i used to do the re-writing back at home) so i thought it'll work the same way..

but half through Nero encountered errors verifying the compilation and it totally ruined my DVD-RW..

n not just one, it ruined 3 of my precious DVD-RW with super junior in it!!and now the DVD couldn't even be read by the pc..

luckily i made back-up files for 2 of the DVDs..and unluckily i dun have the back up for the other DVD..so the files are gone..~

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should i cry?? [Crying already T.T]

CLASS, HOW BAD I AM!!

i think i was being unfair..the semester has started and i never even talked about my class.. ok, so here it goes..

the first few weeks can be considered as umm..how should i phrase it?ok, let's just say, they weren't so good..

i know that i've been pretty terrible, with the attendance etc, but i'll try to be a better student(yeah, a STUDENT, a full-time student)..

i'll try to study harder and attend class as much as possible..

i need to be motivated..ok, i guess that's all..i'll write again when i've made some improvements..

Nae, Fighting!!

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Oppa, cheer for me too!!

SUPER JUNIOR IS COMING!! KL CONCERT~

Suju's coming to Malaysia..Their Asia Concert Tour includes KL..ISN'T IT GREAT??

I'm going!
I'm going!
I'm going!
I'll definitely go!!

but the date hasn't been confirmed yet..i'm so excited..i know that i'll probably go broke, but this probably happens once in a lifetime..

i'll buy the front seat ticket!!how much is that??i hope it's still affordable..i need to find a part time job to get the money..that's going to be tough..

whatever it is, i'm going..!!

i can't wait!!pls SM, confirm the date!!i wanna see them live..

leeteuk oppa!!
heechulie!!
kangin!!

7 days off civilization??

Missing U

a week without internet connection=nightmare..
my brain just died!!

i still can't get over with my extreme stupidity last nite..i tried to connect to the internet for 6 hours, from 6pm to 12 a.m ,but it kept failing..

n today, i checked n it turned out that i didn't plug in the phone line..
arghh!!stupidity overload!!

how could i not notice??
i mean how could i?
such a simple thing!!
n i didn't notice it at all!!
am i really that stupid?? whyy?? T.T

SUJU vs DBSK!!

cute! cute! cute!
Exploration of Human Body ep.9 with DBSK!!
watched it the day b4 yesterday..
hillarious! dorky! cute!!

EunHyuk: I used to play (the four farmer's) instrumental..
Yesung: I collected bugs..

haha, i love their hobbies!!

n Teukie could've been a H.O.T member??
so funny..

Teukie: I'm younger!!

cute!!frankly u're not that old,leader-ssi..
even heechulie looks so young..
HEECHULIE-aa!!rarely see him these days..
i hope he'll appear more with others..

n next week's episode will continue featuring DBSK!!
i love seeing SUJU with DBSK!!

looking forward..
-Exploration of Human Body 10 with DBSK(080113)
-YSMM featuring KANGIN(080114)
-1000 Songs Challenge - LeeTeuk, Kangin, Shindong

2008: A Melancholy

Happy New Year!!
n Happy 24th Birthday Sungmin~

i'd never prepared for 2008.. i used to plan what i'll do n stuffs for 2009, but strangely i forgot there'll be 2008 first..n still i haven't make any plans..

it's kinda messy aite now..i dunno wut will happen next..i have no plan at all, there are things i'm looking forward to but there are some that i still find so difficult to even think of..

study for example..what's next?it really is hard just to think about it..with decreasing interest each day, i don't know what to expect to happen later on..

i don't want to be a teacher..i hope i can be a translator n travel d globe..it's d only thing i enjoy doing..ah,again..dream~

frankly, i really don't like being here in shah alam..i used to be glad i'm doing this, n it's not that i want to stop doing it..

it's just i hate the atmosphere now.. i hate how things change n get worse n worse everyday..it's been 3 years now n it feels like decades already, n i just started to feel sick with everything..

n you know how ppl change overtime?i changed so much over the holiday that i think i've dissappointed half of d people in my life..

n i'm afraid people around me, people i love n believe in,will change too..what if suddenly everyone turns their back on me n walk away..

i wish i'm not so difficult as a person, unfortunately,i am T.T

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2008, please bring some happiness to me~

GOODBYE DECEMBER AND 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
THERE'S SO MUCH I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS YEAR..
AND I'M EXCITED ON HOW THINGS WILL TURN OUT..

BACK TO THE DARK SIDE

i'm back in shah alam..the mood is depressing..i wish i'm still home..i miss home..

first day of new semester..it feels lonely and empty..my soul's totally lost somewhere else..maybe because nad's not there..yeah, that's one of the reason..apart from that, i guess, my mind is filled with all those silent happiness over the holiday..

the images of the past few weeks keep playing n playing b4 my eyes..i just keep seeing 'em everywhere,all the time, even when i'm talking to others, my mind is flying elsewhere n i just smiled for no reason..i really miss 'em T.T

I MISS THE INTERNET CONNECTION

i just onlined this afternoon, n of course i checked straight in SJFullhouse what's the latest update n there are like 6 or 7 new uploads, so much for one day!

n the new Exploration of Human Body is uploaded as well..!!

UNNI~ UNNI~

i'll miss Unstoppable Wedding..owh, i love the drama..it's so funny..HYUNG~ i always find it cute whenever i hear it..

eeteuk hyung, heechul hyung, etc OMO! i miss their dorkiness already~

i guess i got too influenced with all these elder thingy, n i kinda feel good 'bout being an unni..i guess it'll be kinda nice to have dongsaengs n having them called me unni or noona..

it's weird, ain't it..but i just have all these strangest ideas lately..

ETC.

found this link..i guess it's d live sbs streaming channel..

http://wwitv.com/tv_channels/8000.htm

i rili wanna watch the next episode of Exploration of Human Body live!

SUPER JUNIOR vs DBSK!!
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must be freakin' cute..' i'm not a DBSK fan tho, jz love seeing them together..