2008: A Melancholy

Happy New Year!!
n Happy 24th Birthday Sungmin~

i'd never prepared for 2008.. i used to plan what i'll do n stuffs for 2009, but strangely i forgot there'll be 2008 first..n still i haven't make any plans..

it's kinda messy aite now..i dunno wut will happen next..i have no plan at all, there are things i'm looking forward to but there are some that i still find so difficult to even think of..

study for example..what's next?it really is hard just to think about it..with decreasing interest each day, i don't know what to expect to happen later on..

i don't want to be a teacher..i hope i can be a translator n travel d globe..it's d only thing i enjoy doing..ah,again..dream~

frankly, i really don't like being here in shah alam..i used to be glad i'm doing this, n it's not that i want to stop doing it..

it's just i hate the atmosphere now.. i hate how things change n get worse n worse everyday..it's been 3 years now n it feels like decades already, n i just started to feel sick with everything..

n you know how ppl change overtime?i changed so much over the holiday that i think i've dissappointed half of d people in my life..

n i'm afraid people around me, people i love n believe in,will change too..what if suddenly everyone turns their back on me n walk away..

i wish i'm not so difficult as a person, unfortunately,i am T.T

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2008, please bring some happiness to me~