just being sad.

i have to stay longer in shah alam. my research proposal got rejected, so i have to re-do it, all over again. for most part. i need to go to the library too. uh, i hate this. i'll go crazy sooner or later.

i - don't really have any friends, do i? maybe a few. very few.

ahhh~~ i just hate going anywhere alone. i can't expect to ask people to come out with me all the time. i know and that's the most depressing part, cuz i just simply can't be all by myself. it'll drive me crazy and depressed.

should i try making some new frens? as if it's so easy to find frens. urgh. that's why i hate shah alam. because i'm alone here. alone.

i want company. i can't stand just being by myself. i hate to say this, but i really can't be alone. I NEVER wanted to admit this before but - that's it.

the only person that always goes out with me is nad. sometimes, i would bug her to go out with me.no, i always bug her to go out with me. i'm so selfish. i think she must get sick at me at some point. i even get sick at myself. ahh~ just - why am i like this?

why is it things are like this? why can't i have the good times of going out with a group of friends and just have fun?

i want to have a bunch of friends like the old days.

uh, i'm getting even more emo than teuk now. shoots! i better stop.